today, i'm pretty much brain tired. when i'm tired, i get noisy, then until too tired, i feel like a zomby. pretty much funny, but tt is uniquely me. hehe.

today is probably the day i realli feel quite a failure as a granddaughter.I feel good going over to granny's place. whenever i see her, i nv fail to wrap my arms around her. seeing her so happy to see me, is sth tt got my heart wrenched.we sat round the table eating, she kept on toking, kept asking me to eat, kept moving ard to get more food. aunt felt her annoying. i could feel the "can u shush for a moment" kinda look from their faces. then she toked bout her leg. then she toked n toked.as she toked, i smiled, n look at her. she lost so much weight from the last time i visit her. n i jus look upon my surrounding, n then i looked at daddy. its been long to see his eyes red. i controlled throughout the dinner, not to cry. at tt moment, i realli feel tt i realli hasn;t done a good job as a granddaughter. she continued toking. she jus went on toking. she toked, but she didn't cry. she kept on smiling. even when she say how painful her leg is. she is freaking god 90 plus. n i was wondering, if she would to be my age now, she would be a so much better dancer than me cos her legs is so strong.i think she will do well in house. hehe. her legs r powerlegs. i dunnoe how the freaking hell she can walk here n there, when deep down she noes she is hurting.then she went on toking. she didn't let me touched the plates. she insisted to wash, n wanted me to sit at the living room n have fruits. she passed me a basket of fruits.
n she kept on smiling. n i feel sad n disappointed. sorry grandma for not going for dinner the past few times cos i'm in school. n i will study hard.
the thought of her leaving us, bring tears into my eyes. n i realli do not wish tt happens. i am selfish, very selfish in the sense, i dun wan anyone part from me, esp her.

MIND over BODY, THINK Above the LINE
all in all
JUST TAHAN, JUST CHIONG
Won't Die Wan
=))))
n shit u OSTRICH!! the image of u eating shit, makes me lose appetite!!!
YUCKSSS!!!