ihatethispartrighthere

last entry yess!


have u ever felt, u wanted to say sth but u dunnoe how
have u ever felt like u feel like throwing everything
have u ever felt u want to do everything but u can't
i felt it, n it feels like shit
i dunnoe how to relay what i really want to say
my english sucks
but i want to say
it somehow affects me to know that i dunnoe how to help someone
n i cannot seem to runway from it
n it daunts me

i dun wan to fail this whole thing
cos i noe its going to mean alot to everyone
i wish i can go back to square 1
be the quiet person
n just sit n see
can i
i feel like shit
its damn saddening

to those i wanna apologise
i finally understand the stand u all have
i'm sorry i can't help u all in everyway
but i will try
even if i can help in ur life for just 1%
i will be very happy
i just can't satisfy everyone


i feel damn sucks
i cannot say that i wanna let go
i just can't.....
esp for u, i hope u can learn and grow
cos i am doing the same
it takes time to settle emotions
no one is ever right or wrong
bare tt in mind



i feel damn shitty
omfg

i am tired=(
ytd stayover at baby's place prepare for the poster til 4 am, wake up at 63oam. then i seriously brain shut. then i tell u right. i seriously hor find the bizarre is interesting, cos got cheap food but horrrr... i dun like selling clothes there. but its a gd experience. i learn alot.if u want to do business, u dun need to have a million bucks, u just need a gd brain, i mean a smart brain and a good mouth. 60 over stores like googling all ard kovan interchange.i feel like its like a pasa malam thingy.

sometimes in life i want to take up all the opportunities that is given to me, but then i realise i only have one heart. I can't do all. but i try. sometimes i dunnoe why i even accept certain opportunities that is given to me, but i noe i will learn. i dun have to noe that i will win in all oppoortunties,i noe i will be satisfied with myself by doing so.=) but i have to admit, its draining to the brain.

u noe people are v contradicting at times, they always say " i can forgive but i can't forget" but then they still damn piss off with the other partner who pisses their ass off. its damn funny. then i am wondering, if u piss off, how can u forgive in the first place. the issue is, whether can u get over the problem, and move on with life. to forget sth tt is significant to ur life is hard, but to forgive u need a heart to be open, and a mind to be stable. so yup=)
(i am that contradicting person who also does tt, so its normal, we r all chicken nuggets. hahaha)
stay happy, and u can drive ur sadness away.=)



sleep mode

my nose ALMOST KILLED ME

let me post another blog post. its damn funny... okayyy this is for u mr chan song han.. n mayb to ur brother as well. hahahahahah
i was super sick on monday and tuesday.
my nose was like so blocked, I MEAN BLOCKED like u noe someone shaft like one big turkey into my nose til i cannot breathe. yeah tt kind of blocked.
then ytd i didn't went school, so i stayed at home, so i didn't eat until 6pm like tt, then smarty sam planned to cook porridge (cos my baby sweetheart suggest me to eat tt=) since i am sick), so i went to boil the rice. hahahaa then i went to study fior stupid CT which is today arrrgghh.
then seriously MY NOSE IS BLOCK
i jus kp studying
UNTIL I SEE SMOKE COMING INTO MY ROOM. then i tot what happened. then i see the kitchen all smoke!!
then i see the fire like quite big but not so big. then i quickly off. then i see the rice all black. then the pot spoilt. hahahahaahahaha. then my face is like what should i do now. then i look at shandy, she nv bark she jus sit there n see the smoke. omg. she is so cute, then i was thinking, y she nv faint from inhaling all the carbon.but thank god she doesn't if not i dunnoe wad to do. i will feel damn guilty for murdering my sweeet and annoying and yet adorable dog.
so the morale of my story, if u have a BLOCKED nose, stay away from cooking at home=)!!!
it almost kill me. omgggg!!!!
lucky i not blind, if not i confirm die.hahahaha


current mood, my eyes are so dead!i wanna slp all day=))))wheee=)))

okay 3 more blog entry to go!!!

I became to lose certain things of myself
i lost interest in taking fotos(hahaha)
i lost interest to upload fotos
i lost interest to shop
i lost interest to watch tv
some more n more n more
..............................................................
hehe, i also dunnoe why
i feel tired, but i want to keep going n do the things i feel like doing
i feel i am too talkative
n sometimes, i like myself for tt, but sometimes i hate myself for that
it seems like
i am always contradicting
because its just me
so sometimes bo bian,
i must tahan myself for tt
since its me myself who is like tt
i only can just sign to myself
for all these things
and sometimes i don't want to say what i think
n i hate myself for that
cos its jus not the right time
n i jus hav to store inside n kp thinking
n i jus feel tired of all these thinkin
but i want to think
n i am contradicting again
shit me for all these
i feel like a asdfghjkoiuytrewqertyuik
i want to slp just slp=))
slp n SNORE!!


n MR SONG!!! this is one entry alr!!! u wait for the other 4 u spamer!!! hahaha u tiko reporter!!!!u beta not post the video on youtube!!!
hahahahhhahaha




my poor toe, the meat got cut off!!!=((((((((can see the flesh!! yuck!!!
i'm so sad!!!
cos pain!!!
stupid brick!!! arrgghh
now i must wear shoe=(((((
arrrghhh
my toe no longer sexy=((((((
bye bye people!!!




let's understand, and be understood=)