oh well i seen to have a holiday away from blogging. so long since i jus sit down quietly and just starely blankly at the lappy screen and start to blog. yuppp... o well, been busy a song n dance items. my body is achinggg=(( but it will be all good. i feel slightly freak out when images of the actual perf starts flickering in my mind, seeing the mass audience, how wobbly my legs would become, wad will happen if i turn n fell, wad if i get so freak out n shit on my pants, wad if i get so nervous i forget my steps n jus stone in the middle of the perf, so many wad if shit here n there. tt certainly got my baby hair standing n goosebumps oozing out. i will always try to calm myself down each moment when those images flickers, i will start to meditate to myself by saying this,"if u make a shit out of this perf, it will be a once in a life time most memorable thing tt happen in ur life!!!n tt will change everything, n it'll definitely be a good change." but u noe wad, tt sentence didn't help, everyday, tt stupid images kinda scare me abit, n tt kinda make me a weakling i feel. i can pull through this. i always wanted to perform on a big stage. i seriously always wanted. i nv tot this is seriously happening. nth beats, having my parents to sit down there n see me perform, having them to be proud of me, noeing why i am doing this, noeing how much i am serious bout dancing n not a waste of time. i jus need to give her time, n myself time to accept this. i jus hope tt one day she'll be able to jus see me in real life performing for sth. i hate to compare parents cos every parents show their love in a diff way. everyone is busy w stuff, we must understand. i love everyone. i'm happy. i just want to get my moves right, dance w the beat, flow w the rhythm and not dance like a horse trying to gallop away from its predator. i am trying hard not to dance like a bloody horse. i will not become a bloody horse. yupp!! u got tt right!!^5!!

i think this post is going to be freaking long winded. hahahahha.tt is to cover up the number of days i nv blog. hehe. yuppieee. well i learn alot of things through s n d, the people, dance, the styles, n lots. but i wun blog it out. maybe some other time.

sometimes its pretty confusing when u start to mingle w people,people tell u stuff. its makes it ironic to me. those appear all nice n well-liked n stuff might not be wad they turn out to be. its funny isn't it. well, i'm neutral, i'm cool. i hear ppl tok. i'm not an angel myself, no one is. when i'm paranoid, i tok rubbish. tt's me. but sometimes, ppl can change their mask so fast i can't even differentiate hu is hu. i bet u all understand a shit in this post. well, i dun do things directly cos i dun like creating a big hoo haa. so yup.we got to learn to accept the way ppl are. no one is right in their doings cos there's no one perfect. yup tt's all i wanna say.


omg my body is wobbly, i'm going to put yoko yoko. its damn shiok serious. i like the hot burning sensation. hahah. so niceeee. okiee dokieee. tt's all for my say today. tml danciee danciee smack smackk!!! ding dian!!! ding dian!!!! dun dance like a bloody horse sam, u r in no hurry for time. the music is nt some techno shit, so its cool, dun need to go kuku over it. N YESSS I HATE TECHNO!! n yupp. okiee dokieee ciaooooo.