i am up at 1:45,i dunnoe wad to do, msn hates me:(, make me even boring. cos i cannot disturb me to tok to. then i am shitting on the toilet bowl shitting, kidding,actualli its true, actualli i lied, actualli realli, but then i lied, then realli leh, then no then yes , yes no yes no, u all guess k. ok one strand of my fake hair gone. i did my extension for sat morning for some staff. so i'm plannin to remove it on sunday. ok u ppl will go like, WTF!!! SAM U WASTE MONEY FOR JUS ONE DAY!!! WTF!! ok, ppl u all must understand, i feel like barbie doll w tt fake hair. i feel fake w tt fake hair. i kp wondering whether hu's hair is it on my hair. then u noe kinda spooky. so yeah. i shd remove it. i feel awkward w fake stuff lying on my hair. although i regret cutting my hair, but when i see denise keller with short bangs, man!!! how i wish i have small face like her. but then again, i am heart content to have part of mum n dad genes. chubby is beauty babeh!!
then i was asking myself jus now, "sam how many times did u lied?"then i start counting, then i ask again,"what were ur reason when u lied?" then i think, how the hell i noe. then i ask, u like lying?, then i think. hu loves lying.ok i am so random.

i shd have went to sch today. if i did, i wouldn't have feel so empty. i feel so bored. but yet i dun wanna go out cos i was lazy.n now i am thinking wth shd i do tml morning. wad am i gonna prepare? which song to choose? hack it, jus impromptu.

let me see wad to blog abt.hmm... i was reading XXXXXX blog and YYYYYY blog. and then i was kinda disturbed by abit by the situation going on. she loved him, then she loved another him, BUT!!! him and him are bloody hell good frens la!!wtf!!!and u noe wad is the even more wtf thing, i noe one of them. or maybe i noe 2? or 1? or 2? hack it. but its such a WAH LAO situation. i have nth to say. i am bored. i want to slp, but i'm not tired. pls use a pendulum n knock me to slp.

ok this is random, let me suka suka write sth here, then i end this shit okieee.

ur promises
were kept in mind
til now even when we lost our hearts
i read the many sweetest words u wrote
which i wished were meant for me
u've nv seen the tear drops
the heart ache
the sorrows
they were invisible pain
days were like years
so long to pass
even sec were counted into minutes of hours
tt was how distant my life is
the man tt had jus entered ur life
is a question in my mind
will he be the one?
does he love u like i do?
we became unspoken strangers
and tt has teared my wounds
scraping the flesh apart
seeing blood flows
i can feel the fiery
i still love u like i do
but will u do the same to me too
even when i noe, u are seeing the man
the man tt have taken away u
will u?

goodnight ppl... hope his fine:)smile!!!!!!!!!!!!

today i skip LMS lesson!!!wheee!!! n wad this means, i can slp LOOOOOONNNGERRRRRRRR n SLP even more later!!! and self prac at home!!! wheeee!!!then at night, will be finishing tutorials!!!wheee!!!so organize!! and janet jackson is so sizzzling hot!!!the way she dance is like hot electrobot!! man!! i wanna be samantha jackson too!!! i am going to own tt name!! all the other samanthas' pls buzz off n stay away from tt title!! hahaha!!


honestly
wad have u been thinking,
his in silence of sadness
n ur pretendance to hide
soar his wound
deeper n deeper
u defend, standing behind tt shield
which seem visible to me
he is left with nothing
jus for a second
his lost
i became helpless
i dun wan to be him
u too
and his no doubt
words of unspoken left them apart
i am speechless for a moment
my mind began to wonder
in confusion n despair
i felt helpless to him
my apologies

HAPPY BDAY SEBBY WEBBY LASAP GUI!!!

"DAM DAM"

BLOOOOPSSS, if i have anoerexic face, i will look like tt. so i decided i love my chubby face. so nice to pinch la!!wheee:P

these 2 crazy monkeys!!! always make fun of them, but end up all of them make fun of me:(

now because i mix too much wild animals from the wild jungle, i turn out to be one of the monkeys in the zoo, with a swollen cheek. hahaha!!!

seriousl, i think my face is too big!! but hu cares right. i love the fats babeh!! n tt ugly twist is seriously soooooooo way offfffff!!!! shd jus MOP it away!!1:P

Mr han seems so constipated,n tt neh neh is like %&#($)%!. okiee done:)

nth much to blog bout. i am kinda upset. i will jus simply work harder.:) feeling tired.

sometime i feel clueless, shd i take i jus tk a step back n think back. n lay back, n do nth?

its hard..

tired~~~

i sat on the toilet bowl, i took out cleo magazine, and i saw lindsay lohan w her long hair, then i flip, i saw britney spears w her long hair, then i flip i saw jessica alba w her wavey long hair,then i flip somemore, i see even more long hair, then i shut the pages, n decided not to shit. then after bath, i got out of the toilet, i saw mum w her long hair. then i was like.....:(, then i got out of the hse, i board the bus, even the old aunty got long hair. then i was like:(, then i went up the double deck, ok,i saw a BUNCH of long hair.then i got down, i see erneh w his not so long hair but longer than mine,then i got to my class, i see crystal's hair, i see all the other hair long than mine. even clarence hair is longer than mine. ok!!!!then i was like :(:(:(:(:(:( i so regret cutting my hair. then i got home, i look at daddy:))) dad u r a great comforter. ur hair makes my hair look so much longer. hahahaha!!!!!! cos he got short hair PLUS CHUBBIER FACE like mine!!!wheeee!!!!!!:):):)

HAPPY ELATED BDAY TO DEAREST KIT KIT!!!!!!!

now is 11, another hr more!!!

weeee!!!!!!!!

his my great 74 bus partner

his my great dancing buddy

His my great fren!!!!!

happy bday pal!! its early to wish, but its always beta to be early than late.

stay happy as eva!! no matter how down u r, u have great frens like us hu will back u up, support u and love u man!!! from the first time noeing u during audition til now, man, its a good thing noeing u. go thru the ups n downs. yup. ur chest popping has improved so much. now i feel my boobs r useless:(, wheneva i compare urs!! beatboxing way to go. boo chika chika pa!!hahah

HAPPY BDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! wheeeeee:)))))) stay happy as always!!!

winks!!!

go go go
we all love u fren!!!

REDCAMP!!!!

BLACKIES BABEH!!!!

BLACK IS THE HOT SHIT!!

ANN AND ME!!!<3

well if u see close up, my nose n eyes r red after crying. but i think u all can't notice my eyes la. anw, the cake was nice!! i like!!i wanted to get another piece to eat, but i realise not my bday. hahaha!!tsk tsk.

GAY BOY!!!

he was sooooooo "chio" la!! hahah!!! i didn't noe toilet paper has a brand called "gucci gucci"

haahah

i am so tired. i am done w bca. hand up my shit. now left w POA:( how sia!! i wanna slp man. tml is kitkit bday!!!

let me show u a fugly foto of myself i took in the lib. dun b freak out k.ready get set go!!!

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tadah!!!!if u wanna call me a puffer fish or a fat pig or some fugly shit, go on k. BUTTTTT JUST DUN LET ME KNOW.cos sammie is soooo going to hate u for tt!! heeeeee:)

anw, had class today. n my stomach was burning cos i ate alot of chilli. haha. congrats to jamie n kit kit for performing high school musical. :))) good luck n work hard. i also got to work hard:( i see most can do push up today, and i see myself on the mirror, n start bitching to myself,"eh bloody hell, y u still stuck there, n not going down?!!go down leh go down leh" but physically i noe, i am half dead. hahaha. my arm was like ^*@^#%$$(!. yup.hahahaha:))

today going to slp late. n finish some of my work. so can celebrate kit kit's bday:)) wheee!! chiong okiee!! hahaha!!SAM SAM GO GO!! n i must thk mr han!!! thks for the answer. reduce one load of work for me!! hahah!!tml i will post one funny foto of eugene. tt "gucci gucci" damn funny la. we were acting for lms. msn, this man can freaking act as a good gay!! hahaha!! dope shit babeh!!

okiee, gtg!!bb:))

honry right these 2
wassupppppp

wheeeeeeee:)loves!!

hot hot hot!!

twister twist

i hate standin beside him, make me looks fat

botak botak. dun he look like some cartoon character? i can't think of the name. will let u noe once i can recall.
didn't had the opportunity to tk fotos w the gals cops they were practising fantasy. :( but there's always next time:)wheee!!

hey hey to my sexy boyfren!! dun b jealous giam:P

well,ytd we were all involve in redcamp thing. it was fun, we learn a 2 stes of 8s for 3 genres, jaz funk, locking and hip hop.its fun. tt explains all the aching we r having today. today was a :(. then we ate alot of sweets for dinner, then me n giamm kope food outside. can't tk it.

after everything, had MAC then come back n hav celebrate ann's bday. n i cried. i couldn't control i cried. i am going all emo. but seriously, NRA has played a big part of my life. i needa THANK FARID for asking me to come for audition. yup. if it wasn't this buddy of mine, i think i wun be able to realise what i want by now. so thk u. n also my great dancemates hu has always been w me thru ups n downs. sharing the same passion. hav fun tgt. luff n cry tgt. go thru the highs n lows, eva supporting. n ann hu nv fails to gv us the determination to move on.yup. thk u. n see wad happen when i cry pretty bad after hugging Ann.see wad they say k.

Jamie.C:CB y u cry sia

Eileen:wah lao y u cry, u cry we cry leh

jamie:F*** ni, see la i cry

shufang:KNN, u dun cry la

Jamie.L:see la we all cry la

then jamie.c went on n come to me n say, KNN, KB,CB, blah blah

then i started luffing.

hahaha. sry k if i spread the crying to u all. hahah!!:))

wheeeeee!!! at last!!i got her foto!!! whee!!!
3 hearts beat as one

yeah babeh!! i bought celine dions latest album ytd at "THAT CD"with daddy--TAKING CHANCES!! it is DOPE SHIT!!!she is into classic rock babeh for her new album. marvellous!!this is one of my fav song, "i got nothing left", very meaningful. but actually all her songs r meaningful.

I Got Nothing Left

Did anybody ever tell you that you’re not wholeHollow shell of a man without a soulNever ever felt your warmth, ‘cause you’re always coldThe only thing that makes sense is letting goAnybody ever tell you that you’ve got enoughTreated my love like just another wordTired of giving love to you that you don’t deserveSo this is another way of saying it’s over‘Cause I got nothing left, I got nothing leftI got nothing leftI gave you my best And you treated it worth lessSo I got nothing leftAnybody ever tell you that you’re gonna learnTrust and respect are two things you must earnWhen it came to loving me you just weren’t concernedYou never gave a damn, so I guess now it’s my turn‘Cause I got nothing left, I got nothing leftI got nothing leftI gave you my best And you treated it worth lessSo I got nothing leftSo done with youMaybe we’re throughSo done with you‘Cause I got nothing left, I got nothing leftI got nothing leftI got nothing leftI got nothing leftI gave you my bestAnd you treated it worth lessSo I got nothing leftSo done with youSo done with you

tell me how not to love them, so lovable. i love them!!

yay!! my bday is over babeh!! n kitty kitty kat kat's one is next!!

its all the tot that counts that brought tears in my eyes:) loves:))

gay boys!!

chin's maneater

wheeeeeeee!!!

today nth much to say.someone tell me y my anger jus nv last long. y my head kept thinking. thinking whether they all have reasons for behaving like that. everyday in the bus, tots like tt jus comes. but when i think again, "r those ppl thinking about me as well?thinking y i act like tt?or is it just me alone?" i think they simply dunnoe. well, yes i was angry jus now, but now i am calmed. but i dunnoe bout tml n the next day. ppl jus got to chnge for the beta. its beta to chnge now then lata. its beta. jus listen. listen n listen, n tt;s my one word of advice for u. no hatred. peace out:)n lotsa loves!!!

whee!!its sammie's bday!!!
i got kipnapped!!

my beloved von hu planned everything!!thks lots. loves!!

someone is missing from here!! shufang got to send me her fotos!! i love her la. today got her POA test but yet she came to celebrate!! loves!!

anw let me blog the whole process.

i was suppose to meet von at 5 at np bus stop. but it rained so heavily, tt i got drenched cos the rain was humongously heavy!! so i got to run back home 2 times to dry myself. n now i got a slight flu:( but tt aside. i took a cab there to meet her. then she gave me the prezzies.then we waited. i totally got no idea!! then she jus say, "times up!!" n she took out a pink cloth. and blindfolded me. n shaft her mp3 into my ears, n blast it so loud. its prob the most maluating thing it can happen to me in the school's bus stop. there r definitely ppl staring.i feel like a retard. seriously. i'm like physically paralysed or sth. then i reached some unknowen place, von hold my hand n guide me to the lift n up then brought me to sit. then they were throwing balloons at me, someone hit my head and someone brought a dog close to me. seriously, its freaky la,realli like kana kipnapped. then they slowly took off my blindfold. then they all sang a bday song. i was seriously so touched i teared.man. they were so sweet. then shufang ask me to use my mouth to tk out the candle which she purpose press right into the cake.my face was smeared w cake. then we ate. then they got me to freestyle. they blastthe music. one by one dance. damn funny. chin perform his man eater. then later we played game. we blindfold each other and then catch here n there. so freaking funny. i was lmao. we all did. we did stupid stuff. then we played another games whereby we aask ppl do stupid thing. like kiss the earlobe, then kiss the head, all the stupid stuff. haha. then dance n eat again. then it was time, ppl needa go home. so they call me out. "1,2,3!!" they took the trash bag and put over me. i tot i was kana hum tam la!! then later they took the trash bag out, and the gals kissed me. so sweet right!! i so love this bday. these peeps realli brought me high. they touched my heart. well they r true fren who i will foreva treasure!!

2 days had happened many things, good n bad, brought a turn ard to my life. and i suddenli feel i am being awaken. more aware of my surroundings. i noe hu r realli there for me in times of need. i became stronger. i love u ppl peeps. thks for the wishes, thks for the planning esp von. thks for evrything. thk kj to hear me cry like thunder. thks peeps for cracking up jokes. the dumbbell joke is still funny.and of cos thks to my beloved dino to accompany out late at night!!loves loves loves n more loves.!!:) all ur doings r realli well appreciated!!winks!!!

more fotos to be updated!! winks!!

I am in love.........

with

THIS!!!!!

tako balls babeh!!!!

yummy!!!

i didn't realli like it last sem, but this sem i simply love it. am i weird?!!!

and now i have a habit of saying this in a hong kong accent

"you r a bad boy!! bad bad boy!!!"

and i am using this for an act!! hahhah!!! woohoo!!! damn its funny!!!

i hav jus finish the balls,yummy!!n waiting for an hr for peggy in canteen one

let me see, later wad am i going to do...

do some of my bca!!! i hate bca!!!oops, cross finger tt mrs wong dun come across my blog. heee.

tml i am going to stay home n finish my work--my econs and FREAKING BCA!!!, n go shoppin w mum in the noon. time to burn her wallet!!hee!!!

mum:tml u got programme?

sam:errrr....dunnoe got to double check

mum:not going out w ish or anyone

sam:they having exam

mum:then dino

sam:haven reply yet

mum:then ur classmate

sam:nv plan anything, aiyo y?

mum:cos wanna go buy shirt for u

sam: huh?!! am i deaf?!

mum:ok forget it

hahahahahahah!! my mum damn funny, she sound as though she dating me out as a bf. so longwinded lah!! hahhahahaha. she is so freaking random can. hahahahahahha

BURN HER WALLET!! BURN!!!

heee....

mayb i assume

n tt's not going to happen anymore

i prefer myself

it was the song of day

now that i found you

i had let you go

even if u touched me

i still leave you so

ur soul aint right for more

u and me

well keep it

dun change it

she didn't notice

she caught ur eye

i got a secret love

now tt i found u

how can i let u go

even if i got my man at home

that was what lies in my mind

i will nv leave him again

no,aint right

"but"came into the picture

i have to let go

i must forgo

wad's your name

i pretended

have we met?

have we spoken?

have we loved?

questions i asked where answers i noe lies within me

u believed me

u pened down our story

wanting me to recall in desperation

"remember the day we dreamed too much,

i longed to feel ur touch

u whisper in my ear"

i wish i could go back to the very first day i saw u

those 3 words were left unspoken

memories can onli be remained

in the name of love

we lived in pretendance

in this unknowing world

where we first got together

and then we separate

some ppl, slp dun wan to slp, want to take foto of me!! nice nvm, not nice lah!!! KNNN!!! ahahha!! tt haneh n sebby simplyhave bad fotography skills!! simply said!!

tired!!!!

i finish my task ytd. today i going to do my bca and blaw!! heee. must finish my hw asap, this week no free no free man, busy busy!! heE!!

i want a movie marathon!!! stardust seems nice:)gameplan must watch, my beloved is acting.but put tt aside first.let me see..let's start off w renting, cheaper!!!! i wanna rent vcds, mostly dance related:P or comedy!!! going to do that next week. woots!!!

there'll be times i think back

i feel pretty confuse

slp nappy time!!:P

n shit!!! someone's fingers kp appearing in my head. jialat!!! ahhahaha!!!

bloops!!!:P

omg, today i got task to do. finish my poa, finish my bmgt, finish myIS!!! i am so busy lah!!! n my forehead is feeling a little hurt but there's no blueblack. tt's the weird thing. i hope it doesnt bulge out like a luohan fish. heee.

ok i think some ppl thinks i am realli blunt. but i hav no intention to mix ard w strangers i dunnoe or i am not familiar of. i jus dun have gd impression of them. everyone has diff thinking. i think it this way. well..sry then, i jus dun reply.

and i needa start saving money to buy some essential stuff for next mth like contact lense(how i wish i have PERFECT EYESIGHT!!! u noe the amt of money i can save from buying specs, contacts, soln and eye mo!!!arrrghh!!!),stationaries,slippers,a pouch(time to change my pathetic wallet),a zip bag to put my adaptor,errr.... tt shd be it for now i hope:x hee. u noe gals, when they come to shopping, they will wonder for other things rather than buying those impt ones. tsk tsk. tt's y we r call GALS!!!

i am looking forward to SUNDAY!!!! i dunnoe wad yvonne is planning, but wadeva she plan, i dun care i wan cake. I DUN WAN pandan cake, anything but pandan cake!! hahaha.

reading shisei's blog, got me thinking of this poem.

would you pen me a poem

that depicts the lyrics of a love song

which rewinds the story of 2 lovers

and plays the melody of your voice

would you pen me a poem

that tells me the comeabout of shakespears

where romeo meets his juliet

that heaven had matchmade them

but later brought them apart

and back again in heaven

would you pen me a poem

that writes your love in my lines

your memory in my mind

your presence in my life

that all started at nine

would you pen me a poem

where promises are made

for you to be mine

fingers we hook

our hearts that ties

the knot

which can nv be be undone

would you

off i go. its baby slppy time!! nites nites!!!!!!!!!!

i am so going to slp. yawn yawn. ytd long day outday out w kj n ah von. lazy to blog n upload pics, u see von's blog can alr. hahaha. head pain head pain, running nose, running nose. man i am WEAK! arrgh!!piss offf man!!! i am going to buzz off to bed pretty soon. my day today is like..........slack n pretend to study??!! i was playing shania twain song the whole n jus lying n rolling on the bed. then roll til i fell aslp. hahaha.then i realise i was slping upside down. tsk tsk tsk. n now i am going to slpppp again. roll roll roll n doze!!!


u bring me smiles day to day
u got me smiling time to time
u got me wondering the smiles
that i always placed
u bring me laughter with word of joy
i giggle w genuinity in your eyes
i see no cemented walls
that hides u away from me
all i see is reality
in times i reckon
but its the smile tt u brought
that pull away the doubts
and brings in clarity
i jus love the smiles
the smile of wonders
the smile of joy:)


good-to-night peeps!!

GALs' ROCK babeh!!

ZzzzzzzZzzzzzzz

tired tired tired!!

BB

hee..hee..

e temptation is getting me

i am going mad

NO sam NO!!!!!

CANNOT!!!!

PAIN
PAIN!!!

NO!!!!!!!!!!

CANNOT!!!

ARRGhh!!

anw, POA is kinda get into my nerves!! SHIT THOSE NUMBERS!!!

okiee, i am going to shit n off i go to school!!

shake shake shake tt booty babeh!!

n I AM GOING TO FINISH MY HW TONIGHT!!!

we'll see..

heee...

bb

his bringing sexy back!!

tired tired tired!!!!!!!!!!

i am starting to dislike u!!!

i am realli starting to dislike u!!!

dunnoe wad its in ur head

but

i dislike it!!!

grumpy grumpy

i hate tt thing!!

i hate tt thing!!!

i dun like lah!!

y u huh

always like tt!!!!

u like tt so much

go kiss it lah!!

dislike u dislike u!!

i hate u!!!

hhaha!!

this is called almost PMS syndrome!!hahahahhaah

ciao!!

today is a tiring day, well the choreo is nice, but i can;t seem to control my freaking assie head, there's a slight improvement in my body control. trying hard to tell my body to follow ann's step, n not dance blindly as if i'm in a disco club. hur hur. tiring. and alot alot more to brush up. my ass is movin good but mylegs r moving nowhere. dun u get piss off when u want things to be done correctly but ur stupid body jus v stubborn, die die also dun wanna to follow. see now i'm pushing the blame on my body n not myself. samantha ar samantha ar, idiot idiot idiot!!

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things doesn't seem to go right for me. one moment i think yea, next moment no. i dunnoe how long i have to pretend. things tend to get a little confusing for me. i seem to lack prediction. i lost my sense. one moment i am like aww, next moment i'm like sam go n die la. its jus everytime i see tt, i become so confuse. its like wth??!!!!shd i simply stop? i scared to cry. ok sam stop. no no no!! BE A GOOD GAL, STOP. done!! DEAL!!!set!! no more shit!! n this is no shit!!!

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and last thing i wanna say before i slp!! F that asshole hu kps ringing my hp!! i'm so going to kill him. and pls for heaven sake stop irritating me!!! i learn law one ok!! i can sue u for harassment. and i aint kidding!!( tt's provided i got money) but i will!!!arrrghh!!!

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goodynight!!!

loves to everyone!!!

camwhores, or sexy addictors?

i choose the second one. hahha.

so bitch la sam!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR SEXY LEGS!!!


REHEARSAL 2

REHEARSAL 1

today is a long outing day. went to sing kbox w peggy n her frens, then went to bugis get prezzie n cake for chinnie sexeh. then went to marina bay had steamboat, supersteam. n now i got stomachache. pretty much enjoyable, or i shd say its very!!! n i am pretty much broke for this week. job searching. feeling tired. n i so dun wanna go sch tml!! arrrghh. i feeel so tired!!!