Tuesday, April 8, 2008

my bestie babehhh love u like bacteria!!!ahahhaah
my dearest sweet good bacteria!!! <3

okieee, its been ages since i blog again. wad can i sayyy... hmmm i am feeling okayyy. i am getting all nerve wrecked n stress. i got to change for some reason. i must try to get away the feelings of awkwardness. there's alot of things running through my mind.as much as i want to get pass this performance, i also want to perform my best in it. i mean i can't be perfect, but the most i can do now is to rmb my steps n get the timing right n give in all my effort. ytd after ann toked to us, it got me to think. i didn't tear cos she was pin pointing at my mistake. i teared cos i felt sorry. the time wang qin n steffi spend on teaching n practising the te wu j over n over again. n over n over again, i made the same mistake. i knew my mistake.i dance like a horse galloping for time. for once, ytd i tot to myself if i wld to be standing in the position of these choreographers, how tolerant am i towards such continuous mistakes. at that moment, i jus feel how i hav drag my dancemates down for that item.it was alot of thinking. n i feel scared. but this is not the right time to do so. i know. few more days, n its showtime!!! no moreee bullshit!!!!


n yup now i got to rely on u my inhaler.inhaler u r becoming my oxygen for these few days.i feel grateful to u.kiss my butt. n i hate being sick!!i hateeeee it!!!!!!!!!!!! cos i hate seeing doctorrr!!!!!!!!!!!!i hate spending money!!!!!!! i hate smelling tt clinic smell!!!!! i hate waiting for the freaking long que!!!!i hate waiting to tk my medicine!!! n guess waddd i jus did all tt i hate today!!!!!!!!for once i tot i could be my own doctor, n tk leftover medicine at home,n get well soon. but after 3 days, guess not huh doctor sam. i got to face this stupid tiko looking doctor n say bye bye to my $41.20 =((( i am seriously depress!!!!!!!!!ppl now dun u eva tok to me bout money issue!!! cos sam samm is freaking broke!!!!!!!! n i going to spend $55.90 on the boots!!! n i still need to spend on other stuff. okayy kill the shit out of me. i am going to find work real soon.n i will eat less cos EAT LESS=SPEND LESS. hehe

today i had a wonderful time. well for once, i can get to meet up w my bestieeee tgt w mr bacteria. hahaha.EVERYONE GO WATCHHHH UNTRACEABLE!!!its A DARN GOOD MOVIEE!!!! n yuppp i am feeling drowsyyy alr. the stupid $41.20 shit is putting its effect on me. o m gg!! the bed is calling my nameeee. hahah. goodynight ppl!!